I've been cleaning out my files and working on my "Knowledge, Spirituality and Personal Growth" Sector of my Bagua and I have to admit, it has been A PROCESS. Like, years worth of progress. I'm starting to feel I have a functional office, where I can accomplish some good work. The feeling of satisfaction and self-gratification is quite real!
One surprising/not-so-surprising aspect of this journey has been the re-discovery of so many notes and writings and ideas from years worth of collection. I'm the type who has a hard time discarding certain things. Not so far as to say that I am a "hoarder," but as a dear friend said once, I'm "sentimental."
Firstly, I am a deep thinker and an artist. I am a writer. So I've kept just about every note I've ever jotted. This is why synchronicity is real, my friends. I circle back to find notes from 8+ years ago, which DIRECTLY relate to conversations I've had in the last week. Issues I'm still circulating through my consciousness. So much has changed. I've learned and grown. I've taken my hits. I've learned to be strong, to swing back, and when not to swing back (we hope!). Interestingly, through all the change and mental evolution, some aspect of my mind is precisely the same. More honed, perhaps. More concise, more concentrated and somehow more open. But at some level, unchanged.
Below is an un-dated entry in a notebook. Reading it now is like my past-self reaching out from the abyss to sooth my present mind. Certain things, perhaps, are constant. Hope. Curiosity. Values. Dreams. That part of us which is forever watching, enjoying this process of evolution, regression, circling.
"There is a dialogue our culture is lacking. Why is this conversation left out of public discourse? I suggest that we are all mini-philosophers, searching for answers we already know. Who are we? What is life's purpose? What is the meaning of self-determination? Why do we exist?
Manifest destiny has become the manifestation and realization of the uninhibited individual, but what of the collective, what of society? We are a great ship of a nation, continent, hemisphere, world...universe...Why do we allow the fearful few dogs violent enough to battle without cease throw the helm side-to-side? As Americans, we like to believe we possess the right to control our individual destinies. What of our national destiny? Shall we go down in history as a nation that dominated or as a nation that lead?
We are on the cusp of a revolution: social, technological...We view and evaluate our world, our lives. To what standards do we hold our judgment? Are there ultimate truths and universal morals, as all religions attempt to teach and so many of us attempt to practice? How can we tolerate a Christian who kills? What sacrifice is the freedom of another? How long will we accept suffering as a necessary part of life? Perhaps suffering is a part of life, because of death+birth; babies cry when they are born; war, hunger, disease...are these the necessary experiences that deliver us into suffering? Why must it be so? Shall we not even TRY another way? Is it true that we have enough resources to sustain our current population? If not, is it possible to peacefully decide who lives and who dies? Humans have few natural enemies, and most of these are microscopic.
We are each teachers and students in the great academy of life. One of my goals is to bring together people and ideas, to help foster new ideas about humanity. I believe that understanding and cooperation will take a front seat in human civilization. So many could get by on so much less. Even a low-income American has more, eats more, enjoys more luxuries than most poor people in the world. In fact, America, income under $15,000k per year is considered impoverished. Ironically, a person working at minimum wage 40hours a week makes less than $12,000 per year. Meanwhile, some folks have $600,000 cars and their second or third car. "
These thoughts were left unfinished but they are as relevant to me now in so many ways, maybe more so than they were at the time. I'm still asking the same questions. Still dreaming the same dream. Won't you join me? I don't need you to agree with my opinions, but I would truly appreciate a conscious and compassionate dialogue at the various levels of our society. What is our national projection? What are our goals, as a species? Are we finally awake enough and connected enough for a real conversation? I'm ready. Are you?